The Next Day

It's the next day, and as so often happens, things are a little bit clearer… and, in this case, a little bit less dire.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not taking myself off the hook. There is still a rough road ahead for her… for both of us.

But… things aren't quite as bad as they initially seemed. And maybe… Maybe today I feel a little bit more comfortable letting myself feel what I was going to be feeling anyways.

And maybe… maybe if I'm lucky enough to bump into you, and I'm able to share with you what's going on, I won't feel quite so guilty about the fact that I'll be happy to be talking to you, even if the subject matter isn't pleasant.

And maybe… maybe I won't feel as guilty if I feel so moved that I have to write you yet another letter to keep my poor heart from bursting… Then another one… And another one…

I can love you and support her at the same time. Truth be told, I've been doing that in some form or fashion for years. This is just… a bit harder. But our love has never been in easy mode.

I hope you have a wonderful day, my love. And I hope I get to see that beautiful face soon… I could sure use your eyes in my life right about now…

Yours,
♒️